~Vie La Laife Framboise Se Liguer~

TAG! i'm it...

2006-11-24T10:51:00.000-08:00

alright, so i gotta write five things that ppl don't already know bout me? then tag five others... okey dokey, lets try this...

uh...........

1) I am perfectly content with my height... but you all see that I don't like being made fun of for it! haha ;-)

2) I have never really enjoyed eating ice cream... and there are just a few times i really crave chocolate, other than that, i prefer not to eat it... (tho i worked at a chocolate shop and ice cream parlor for a year... it ruined my complexion! haha...)

3) you may know this... i want to travel the world (england, germany, switzerland, ireland, scottland, africa, india...)

4) I want to adopt a little boy from africa... maybe a little girl from some other place... and i want one or two of my own children... but not until i've done most of my travelling =)

5) i am extremly picky when it comes to relationships, i would rather be single actually than be with some one who doesn't measure up to my "standards" ... i do not understand how ppl can go from one relationship to the next so quickly and often... most of those ppl meant harldly anything to them. also i may pass up a good opportunity with someone because it kinda scares me to be in a relationship, being that close to someone... haha ya... but i'm getting over it =)

change is good =)

2006-11-16T20:37:00.000-08:00

ok I'm now working five days a week at the preschool instead of three =D heck yes!!!

also... I'm moving to San Miguel, well, more like just in Monterey County... I've got a three bedroom, two bath house with a friend. The rent is totally affordable for me because my housemate just wanted a friend =) her husband is with the National Guard in Iraq and will be there for quite sometime... its on ten acres on a secluded hill and the view is positively lovely =) the best part is that i can paint whatever i want on my walls as long as they are white again when i leave... i'm so stoked. we found the place 3 days ago, officially got it yesterday and we're moving in tomorrow!

lots of love to all

~ash~

Pictures of my adorable student =) I'm so proud!

2006-10-06T22:40:00.000-07:00

I'm sooo stoked that I was able to share these photos with all of you, especially my mommy, it took some doing and faneggling (sp?)

so these are taken on a monday, a good day for him cuz he had been rested and happy to come to school. as you can see, he is as cute as a button! i love him and he's growing more fond of me as time goes by and i show him who's boss ;-) ENOY!

my date continued...

2006-09-20T15:01:00.000-07:00

well what more shall I say...

John, the guy who asked me out was interesting, to say the least... at times he was very old fashioned and sweet... other times he was a little too forward. haha, i thought it was pretty funny when i mentioned that i still had disgusting coffee breath in the back of my throat, my gum hadn't helped. he responded "well i'd like to taste it for you but you probably wouldn't let me... *chuckle* you don't kiss on the first date, do you?" i just stared at him in awed amusement and slight disgust. i soon realized his "hopes" for our meeting and relationship, i'm kinda naive ha... i let him know that i absolutly adore being single at this time in my life... he kept saying, "i really like you, you seem really sweet. i don't want a serious relationship either. i'm good as a friend or you know... 'booty call' *CHUCKLE CHUCKLE*" oh my gosh, i've never met a guy who just speaks everything on their mind like that... my look pretty much said "sure... wutev... BYE!!!" david put it well, "this guys sounds like a real winner!" ha... ya well i enjoy new experiences, trying something just to say i have even if i never wana do it again... this was definitly one of those moments... i just wish this guy didn't still have my number, oh well.

i was amused by my yesterday evening so i thought i would share it, hope you don't mind!

word to the wise, don't give someone who is like a decade older than you you're phone number... he doesn't need to be shown around the town... (you're probably thinkin, "well DUH ashley!)

ha! luv you guys!!! =D

...I just had a date with a complete stranger...

2006-09-19T18:39:00.000-07:00

So ya, last night after my sign language class at cuesta i was walking to my car, minding my own business when i heard behind me "excuse me miss..."

I turned around to see a guy coming toward me that I'd never seen before. He asked if I listened to punk rock, I said "ya". he handed me a flyer to a concert in lompoc that his friend's band is hosting... asked me to tell my friends and look into coming, "they'd really appreciate the support"

we talked for maybe one minute... to my surprise I actually gave him my phone number when he asked for it, saying he'd like to "be shown around the town and hang out sometime" (he recently moved from Long Beach)

he called me this afternoon (doesn't waste any time... he admitted that he tends to move "fast", go with the flow... =/... ha... anyways)

we met for coffee at five this evening. talked bout careers and family history... he works at camp roberts... he's 28! oh man...heh

......oh i'm meeting david for a movie right now, i'll finish this later... sorry! haha

country and shtuff

2006-09-19T13:47:00.000-07:00

I took a quiz to find out how country I am (because I love country music...)

I'm like 78% country

...now I'm going to go home, taking pain killer, plumpin onto my couch with cold water and pretendin its ice cream and watchin some sappy film...

a long day with preschoolers sometimes just wears ya out!
good day to you all

~ashlax~

I'm Scotch-Irish by birth =)

2006-09-19T13:43:00.001-07:00

You're 70% Irish

You're very Irish, and most likely from Ireland.(And if you're not, you should be!)

How Irish Are You?

humility, cleansing, joy... good stuff!

2006-09-08T22:14:00.002-07:00

my new job as an interpreter for the little guy is absolutely amazing! i couldn't be happier working anywhere else, i love working with all of the little 3 and 4 year olds, it brings such joy =) i love kids =D my little guy is stubborn and independant but he is quickly learning to respect and depend on me. he initiated many games today with me, he's warming up quite well. yes he often turns his gaze away from my flying fingers and pushes my signing away and yells at me when he wants to do his own thing, but when he asks for help and i see his bright eyes and shining little smile i just melt =) haha

in the past 24 hours i have completly run out of money in both my savings and checking accounts and no longer have my job at the chocolate factory. but i'm glad to be rid of the chocolate shop job. i just need to gain a few more cuesta classes and start assisting at the high school in my old sign teachers class a few times a week. it'll be good, just gotta stay busy so that old, unhealthy haunts won't... haunt ;-) anyways, enough of the unpleasant stuff!

God is totally growing me and cleansing me inside and out and every aspect of my life. the crap that before would have entertained and intrigued me makes me ill to think of. sweet so ya... i just really desire to be totally hooked on God and passionate for the things of Him... nothing else

luv ya guys! good to chat

*me*

life update and shtuff

2006-08-16T20:26:00.000-07:00

so the interpretting job i talked about i believe in my last post is now my new job. it starts in the first few days of september. i will be in a preschool setting 3 days a week acting as the voice and ears of a deaf three year old boy. i'm excited and nervous and thankful. if i fall in love with interpretting i'm going to pursue an on going career by gaining my certification either through a four year college or mentoring... both expensive but well worth the effort and time cuz there is ALWAYS a high need for certified interprettors... and it pays well, but most of all i would be greatly helping people and for some reason helping others give me the biggest rush of anything i've ever experienced =)

apparently Cuesta Community College starts in 4 days... i'm not prepared for school, i'm in job mode, this job is more important than cuesat classes to me, though i will still take a few. and i will work at my chocolate shop as much as possible because i love it there =)

yeah, that's a pretty full load but it'll work out and be an exciting adventure

ok. i'm gonna head out now. good to chat with ya!!

~luv ash~

sorry for dying...

2006-07-07T13:26:00.000-07:00

hey all...

ya, I guess Ive been kinda lame with the whole communication/blogging thing... ah well

yeah! lots been going on, don't really want to get into it...

at the moment just dealing with some "fun" relationship crap... but its all gonna be dandy soon. I kinda feel like I've side tracked for atleast the past month... its time to get my life back on track =) hopefully a new track entirely that will be lots more fun and awesome

I have an interview this coming Tuesday with the principal of Shandon Elementary School. My sign language teacher recomended me to apply for this interpretting job. A three year old deaf boy needs an ASL interprettor next year starting in September during his days at preschool... it pays really well (from what I'm used to...) and its an amazing opportunity. I think they might even send me to a college in Berkely to become trained and certified as an interpretor. ya, I'd be dumb to screw this chance up... we'll see if God has it in His plan to work it out =) if you think of it, pray for grace and peace =)

i love you all, good to chat again... hopefully we'll do it again soon ;-)

~ash~

I never know what to put for a title...

2006-05-31T17:13:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone that I love so dearly!!!

ok, so I am probably gonna move out this summer. I have looked into a room in this lady's house, but the rent would be too much... I was stoked today cuz a gal from school cornered me and offered to let me grab an apartment with her and another girl from school. we are going to go apartment shopping this Saturday and I'm excited. We are hoping to snag something in paso and the cost should come down to 260 + utilities and all that jazz a month... i can't afford ANYTHING right now, but God will work it out =) and i'm excited for options so soon!

if you think of it could you please pray about this... i would greatly appreciate that!

luv ya!!!!

i'm graduating next week.. isn't that CRAZY??? =D =D =D

=D yippee!!! =D

2006-05-19T14:56:00.000-07:00

LIST of EvENts FOr SaTURDay MaY 20th:

JON'S BIRTHDAY
my brother's birthday
PROM
sarah's birthday party
PROM

...did i leave anything out? ...prom! heehee

YAY!!!!!!

I have a tie =)

2006-05-13T21:28:00.000-07:00

My tie is fuchsia =)

(course, I'm not literally wearing the tie... hopefully you guys get it, haha I know steph does)

=D

2006-05-09T22:11:00.000-07:00

sweet!!! I'm going to prom, and that's that!

(no one can talk me out of it, not even myself...)

bonfire, prom, jon's b-day...

2006-05-07T14:38:00.000-07:00

Steph put on some great songs... but they are making me wanna cry... i'm so sappy, haha... this is lame, now i wanna go to prom really bad................... *sigh*

so here's the thought, lemme know what you think...

*Jon's coming down May 25th, 5 days after his birthday and prom... i had been entertaining the idea of throwing a surprise party for him... but steph had a brilliant idea: we should all get together (well, those who can, who are actually here...haha) and go to port SLO for a bonfire in celebration of jon's b-day AND prom for those of us who missed it... mostly just having fun with friends cuz we can... i really wanna be able to do something like that, doesn't that sound like a blast? we would get dressed up in cute dresses, maybe even fancy dresses... guys will wear watever they wear... we'll figure out how to get music to play there, and of course Jon will have his guitar so he can serenade us with some Dashboard, accompanied by David Landon =) mmm, that makes me smile. ok, whatta ya think? we can so pull it off =D we just have to be more organized than we've ever been in our whole lives!

luv ya soooo much!

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

"And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive"

"someday we'll know if love can move a mountain
someday we'll know why the sky is blue
someday we'll know why i wasn't meant for you
someday we'll go dancing on the moon"

....prom.....

2006-05-01T16:36:00.000-07:00

for those of you that i haven't already told, i think i'm just gonna boycott my senior prom. i can't believe ashley graybill just admitted that, but prom... MY prom, just seems lame in soooo many different ways right now. everyone keeps telling me how I HAVE to go to prom and they are all whining about it but NO ONE has actually given me a good reason yet...

i just hope that i don't regret this later on, when i'm like 65 and telling my grandchildren sweet stories about my life as a teen or something ridiculous like that...

and that's the last i feel like addressing the subject at the moment

*sigh*

hello

2006-04-24T15:13:00.000-07:00

I'm am very happy to inform you that I didn't have to miss out on all the fun this weekend =) I was very concerned that getting my wisdom teeth out on Friday would prevent me from leaving my couch for several days... I did get my wisdom teeth extracted on Friday as planned, and it was a miserable experience, let me tell you! My least favorite part was when mom had to change my goz; she would reach her fingers into my sore mouth and yank at the sticky, blood- drenched goz. It would pull at my tender cheeks and yards and yards of saliva would follow, tumbling all over my chin and sweatshirt. Isn't that the most lovely picture! ;-) ha!

But maybe two hours after I came out of the surgery I was feeling dandy! I felt no pain and had a remarkable amount of energy. When my face ceased to be swollen I was able to drink the smoothies my dad brought me (that was so great! I think you all should get your wisdom teeth out sheerly because you get to miss school and work and have your parents bring you Jamba Juice!) The next day (saturday) I felt no pain so I decided to skip my meds... well, by the early evening I decided to take my pills simply because it was hard to speak with out them... Sunday morning I was able to go to church and spent the majority of the day at Will Allen's house hanging out with all my buds (I had been looking forward to Will's b~day party for many days and I was elated to be able to go).

Mom made me go home and rest for an hour and a half before the Burn Service that night. She said that I had been very active that day and I needed to rest my mouth... Honestly I felt fine, I think that was her excuse to take a nap! haha

The Burn Service was AWESOME!!! It was held at our church, the worship was soooo great =) Energy came from some deep source in the midst of my being and I was able to praise my Daddy. yes, worship was great fun! when all of the songs ended I suddenly felt sooo incredibly drained. My pain meds had made me oh so drowsy and if I had been sitting next to someone besides Andrew, I would have rolled over on to them and fallen asleep (I probably would have started to drool blood aswell so maybe it's a good thing that Andrew was next to me ha!) But despite the fact that I was seriously about to pass out, Roger delivered a great message and I thouroughly enjoyed the whole service.

After a little more unexpected worship and an arm wrestling match with Rachel (I totally kicked her butt!!!) mom wisked me home, telling me that I couldn't go to school on Monday (today). I actually ARGUED, wishing to go to school... but I'm glad I didn't end up going. All the excitement yesterday put quite a strain on my mouth... But it was soooo worth it! =D I told mom that I'm going to school tomorrow, I'll probably go back to work tomorrow or Wednesday...

Having my wisdom teeth out was a far less excruciating experience than I had expected! I totally surprised my self and my parents at how quickly I was able to flit about and act relatively normal...

Well, I do wish that I could take a scrub brush and bucket of a strong minty substance and scour my mouth... my breath is KILLING ME!

...hmm I feel like posting...

2006-04-19T16:51:00.000-07:00

Today was brilliant. I didn't have to be at school until noon, yay for seniors and testing we don't have to do!!! it was funny, you could tell that a bunch of the senior girls had taken extra time to get ready and were feeling quite lovely (myself included). All of their hair was styled especially carefully =) I for one felt fresh and ready to sprint all the way to the sunny, sparkling beach =)

a quick but deadly downfall intterrupted my glorious afternoon... PAIN!!! The only reason I'm talking about this is to let all the guys know that you are a bunch of lucky ducks and i hate you... >=( i scampered off and quickly found some pain reliever, gulping it down before putting a bullet into my mouth...

back to the cheery day =) i had another appointment with my chiropractor... I've been seeing him now for 2 weeks, he's wonderfull =) i had no idea that soooo many problems can stem from misallignment! one of mine being headaches... but did you know that there have been many cases where a woman CAN'T GET PREGNANT simply because her spine was out of place, no joke!!!

I'm still waiting to hear from Ms. Sarah about the location of Group tonight (Bible Study... I preffer the title "group" though no one else calls it that)

HAHA!!! someone said that I reminded them of Aladdin yesterday... I was wearing my green "cargo" pants, a tan tank top with a cotton cardigan covered in soft, pink, tiny rosebuds... oh yes, and i had on my famous sparkly sandle thingys... the ones guys (Michael) call chinese slippers, these were a soft pink... DOES THAT SOUND LIKE AN ALADDIN OUTFIT TO YOU??? it sounds like a typical ashley outfit to me! whatever, i'll take it as a compliment =)

well... I have run out of things to write about for now, or else I fear that anything more would just bore you all to death. so I must say goodbye, my dear loved ones =)

and remember, vie la laife framboise se liguer!!! (live the life of a rasberry bandage) =D

~ashmealioojamilicious~

ps: I forgot... I'm getting ALL FOUR of my wisdom teeth extracted this Friday... I'm gonna be out for several days... we'll see... I'm a little nervous... mostly about having my jaw break possibly, or them hitting a nerve that affects the taste in my tongue and lips, the uncomfortableness that'll follow and not being able to eat much... oh and I will unfortunatly miss out on much fun this weekend =( oh well! atleast I'll be amused by my chipmunk cheeks!!! I'll have the face to match my chipmunk talk! =)

I'm a CARAMEL CRUMB doughnut! LOL

2006-03-30T15:41:00.001-08:00

You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut

You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun.You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life...Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut.To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions.

What Donut Are You?

grr! sickness!! hmph

2006-03-27T19:04:00.000-08:00

my throat is so swollen that it is painful to swallow. I have difficulty whispering, much less talking.

I promised myself that this bug that has been flying around would not get to me!!!

my brother was out for over a week with the nasty thing... when he got better, i got it!

i was doing sooooo well! then Mock Rock happened... I blame it on Mock Rock... The screaming and excitement and physical excertions were too much for my poor body to handle... now look at me!

but it was worth it! ya shoulda been there =) ah... it was magical ;-)

alright, I feel like I'm drowning in tea! haha, mint tea, green tea, earl gray tea, chamomile tea, GINGER tea (man! thats intense!)... you name it, i've downed it! good thing i like tea!

i need a refill, this post is making me a little parched *cough*

AHHH!!! i don't have time to be sick! alright.... goodbye, its time to curl up with my romance novel and some honeyed down green tea.... i hate that title, "romance novel"... hey, its a good book though!

SPRING!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-19T13:39:00.000-08:00

I think its the first day of spring tomorrow! =) how sweet*****

St. Patty's Day!!!!

2006-03-17T15:19:00.000-08:00

HAPPY GREEN DAY TO ALL

AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=)

2006-03-12T17:45:00.000-08:00

don't worry, i'm not stressed anymore... its all good

STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-08T15:10:00.000-08:00

i have never been so stressed in my entire life, let me just take this moment to let out a little steam...

AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alright, thank you, i'm leaving now

I wanna fly!!!

2006-02-15T21:08:00.000-08:00

I could paint my world with such brilliance

Why do I succumb to such a dismal dwelling place?

I was made to love extravagantly

Why do I continue to practice selfishness & hurt those I love so dearly???

I want to fly!!!!

Why am I still stuck on the ground?

Mayfield, the devil incarnate!

2006-02-13T22:45:00.000-08:00

does she really expect me to write an essay? now that my toes are frozen, it's a quarter to 11pm and I'm 15 minutes from my warm bed... can anyone really be expected to write an essay with cold toes???? i think not... but if i don't, i run the risk of a bad grade, or worse! mayfield being disappointed in me (yes... we don't want that!) so... i guess i'll tough it out! but just in case i pass away during this feeble attempt to capture Macbeth's tyrannical struggle in ashley-essay-form, i'll write my will first... :) you just better hope that you are on my good side right now, or you get NOTHIN!

cookie or no cookie???

2006-01-16T17:30:00.000-08:00

I've been craving a cookie ever since Cika called to study for Civics. I haven't done anything about it because I'm alone and I don't want to drive to the store with out a companion! haha, I'm 18 years old and I can't function by myself, this could be bad! OK, who would actually come with me to get a cookie? Anybody? Anyone at all?

So, worship second service was awesome!!!! It hasn't been that intense and amazing in a long time. =) And bunches of people were hearing awesome things from God.

What I found really interesting was that during FIRST service worship I heard this faint knocking sound. Then the knocking got louder and persisted for some minutes. I looked to my right and spotted that little door in the middle of the wall. You know the one I'm talking about? On top of the ramp leading to the stage with the railing across it. What is inside that door anyways!? And how would you open it with the railing right there? These questions go through my mind alot, especially since that is my favorite place to stand during worship.

soo...

I saw Jesus standing on the other side of that door (so that's what's inside that door!!!! awesome!!!! =D haha, jk). Jesus was knocking, He wanted to come in and be with His people. I realized something soooo sad, no one could hear Him knocking because the music was too loud!

Now, its not that the music was ACTUALLY too loud. I felt more that so often we focus on the music, or the worship leader, or some aspect of it all that is pretty insignificant compared to our Heavenly Father. I'm constantly getting distracted during worship, "What are people thinking about me? Is anyone even looking at me? Is so and so entering into worship? MAN I LOVE THIS SONG!!!" haha, we ALL do it from time to time and it breaks my heart to think that we could be caught up in the music or ourselves during worship. WORSHIP! we are there to worship Jesus! yeah, you all know that =)

So, I sat right down and prayed. I told Jesus that He was welcome in that place, I wanted Him to be the focus of my worship. And maybe that little vision thing was just for me to start focussing on Him. Second service worship was radically better! The difference was like day and night =)

Just thought I would share that...

...i still want a cookie *sigh*

the coolest experience on earth!

2006-01-02T16:42:00.000-08:00

Last night Jon picked me up to go hang at his house. After a couple hours David, Rachel, Will and Jon's friend Josh (Jay, JJ...whatever his name is) met up with us. Jay brought two gals who go to my school. I was really surprised to see them there because the focus of the night was intense worship and I didn't think they had relationship with Jesus. Well, I found out from Jay that they weren't christians, but Tasha was beginning to be interested in God. (the girls names are Tasha and Mattie).

We turned on some mild Matt Redmon, before we moved to the harder stuff, Jason Upton. Jon and Will began dancing immediatly and I could tell that the girls were really starting to get freaked out. They held each other, and Mattie began to cry! I sat quietly and watched them, praying. I thought, "God, why are they here??? I mean, they are more than welcome! but... don't you think that this is a little much for them?! hmm..." haha, I had no idea what God had in mind! :D

All at once Jon got his Bible and searched for some passage. He turned down the music, read something pertaining to prayer, and then he asked if anyone wanted prayer. Tasha explained that she and Mattie had latly been experiencing some strange things. I immediatly began to get really excited, here it came... whatever IT was. Tasha went on to say that latly when they listen to certain music and stuff they feel.... movement (she pointed to her chest... her heart). She didn't know how to explain it. She said that she kept feeling pulled towards something, something bigger than her... "That's the reason I'm here tonight. To get answers. Please pray for me" Tasha finished. We all circled around her and began. I explained to her about visions (earlier Jon had explained about gifts of the spirit... prophecy and what not). God began downloading things to Will, Jon and I. Tasha began crying. Then Jon asked her if she felt pulled to become closer to God. She nodded. He asked if she wanted to accept Jesus into her heart (i don't remember how he worded it exactly...) With her consent, Jon took both her hands and she repeated after him the sinners prayer, weeping!

It was the most amazing moment I have ever experienced, I think! Way better than ever getting drunk in the spirit or what not! I have always wanted to witness someone coming into the Kingdom of Heaven, what an honor!

The rest of the night was full of prayer, talks about God and what not... It was so cool when Tasha began to pray for Mattie. The prayer was unrehearsed, a little shaky and the sweetest thing I've ever heard. God must have been over joyed!!!

I can't possibly explain how wonderful that night was! Very surreal. Today my mom noticed that I was very light and extremely cheerful, something I haven't really been for awhile, unfortunatly. I explained to her what the miraculous events of the night before. She was ALMOST as stoked as Jon and I had been. My mom said, "yeah, you are all happy today! your spirit must like being used by God!" Its true! I love being used by God, its been too long! Why can't things like this happen ALL THE TIME??? :D

yippee!!!

anyways, there is going to be much prayer on my part. both these girls are in my psychology class, it'll be great to see them and begin to hang with them and see how they are doing when i get back to school!

~Thank you, Daddy, for that wonderful opportunity! Thank you for using us, getting us off our selfish butts and showing us what YOU want done... Please protect these girls hearts. Continue to soften them and awaken them to the things of You. I love you, my Magnificent Creator!~

luv you guys! :D

William Shakespear...

2005-12-30T17:38:00.000-08:00

what was that thing that Shakespear once said???

something like...

"love everyone, trust a few, do wrong to none"

i like that :)

hmm.... very interesting, indeed!

2005-12-27T17:57:00.000-08:00

well, I'm not sure, but headaches and such could be caused from heavy hair... and bad posture! haha... i like that better!

I can't give up wheat! My dad is going to take me to Biona Tavola (sp?) for my birthday... Fettucinni Alfredo, here i come!!!!

oh yeah... i forgot to mention... I'M 18!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wow....

ok, I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

have you seen The Chronicles of Narnia yet???? Its awesome! :D

decisions decisions...

2005-12-23T14:31:00.000-08:00

well, its my choice to change my diet or not...

and i told my mom that i don't want to quit work until i atleast graduate... then we'll see if i have a job during the summer or not, i'm cool with spending my "last summer as a kid" (well i thought that was last summer...... hmmm) with out working

anyways!!!

yeah... luv you guys... *sigh*

~ash~

Thank you for restoring health, Father!

2005-12-21T12:32:00.000-08:00

I have been having migranes (sp?) and upset stomaches alot latly. I've dealt with headaches and stomach aches for most of my life... I'm sick of it! And I'm not pleased with my acne situation in the least, to be perfectly blunt... haha

I know that around my age is when hormones shift and that can cause acne problems... but I'm sure working at a chocolate shop doesn't help at all! ;) We'll work that out in time... hmm, my mom just told me that she wants me to put in my two weeks notice! wow... my boss is gonna freak! But its my life. Who am I trying to please anyways? God, or man??? Well, too often I try to please man, but only God's opinion matters!

So, my mom and I are gonna try to change my diet. We may try going off gluton... and something else, I don't remember. That worked for some others with similar problems. Well, this is gonna be interesting! haha, gluton is a wheat product... wheat, bread, sugar... i love those things! oh well! MSG is a problem too, which is in tons of stuff! BLAH!!! If that's what's going to get rid of these headaches and ill feelings that occur almost everyday, than its soooooo worth it!

Lord, give us wisdom! Guide us to what's gonna work. Show us the source of the problem. Thank you for restoring health!

I'm also scheduled for a massage on my birthday which will help release tension! :) I've been really stressed latly with alot of stuff... And I'm a worry wort! haha... Stress causes health issues big time. So I've gotta get over that! And mom's looking into chiropractic help... We'll see!

Ok, this wasn't meant as a complain post! haha... I guess I just wanted to state the latest stuff in my life! But I try to think positively of every situation... and not give life to the enemies tactics.

So that's enough of that! My Heavenly Father is in the business of healing and restoring physically, relationally, and financially! So bring it on, God! :D

What homestead character are you?

2005-12-09T18:39:00.000-08:00

You are Faye! You're the mom of the community. You spend your extra time watching kids or hanging with your doting boyfriend. You're hillarious when you're hopped up on medicine.

~ Linksies ~

2005-12-08T17:07:00.000-08:00

Hello there!

(this is the mystery woman, Kristy)

I just wanted to make a quick note about the links I added.
I did as much research work as I had time for; I tried to figure out who Ash knows and who needed to be added as a link.

So, if you know Ash and think you should be on her link list (but aren't) please leave a comment on this post with a link to your blog.

I wasn't sure who all Ash knew and who she didn't.

Also, if everyone could check their own link to make sure I have the correct/most current link, that would be very helpful.

I appologize for anyone who was left out of the origional link list; we still love you and it's nothing personal, I promise.

Ash:
Once I get all the links posted on the list that should be there, then we can discuss what text you would like to be displayed for each person's link. I was just playing around with some of the nicknames and such. We can change them later.

I hope you like what I've changed so far.

I'd better take my child outside to get rid of some of his energy before he drives me insane or I find him hanging from the ceiling since he's currently bouncing all over the furniture.
eeek...

Take care and God bless!

Your Sister in Christ,
~Kristy

Kristy :)

2005-12-07T21:22:00.000-08:00

thanks to Kristy, i will soon have nice links again.... Kristy is amazing, you all should give her a hug from me.... whoever sees her first... if anyone infact does! :) she's the mystery woman, dun dun dun!!! ok, now I'M done! woooohooo! too much sugar! :)

i'd like to give a shout out to my new friend krisann, krisanny... cran~apple (is it ok if i call you cran~apple???? i'd really like to! :) anyways, i was gonna make a big explanation of something...... but less is more, right??? of course right! (gosh! now i sound like.... yenta from fiddler on the roof! haha...........)

k, luv ya and goodnight!

this is ashmo signing off!

(i've always wanted to type that.... :)

OMG!!!! I have to finish chapters 36, 37, and 38 of Pride and Prejudice!!!! I'm leading my class discussion tomorrow morning! haha... its a GREAT book! you all should read it :) ... expecially mr. chris, james, vocce, dann, herald, errr hector.... WHOEVER THE HECK YOU ARE!!! :P

Here I stand, Jesus, I can do no other

2005-12-05T18:32:00.000-08:00

Lord,

may all my actions and words and thoughts benefit your kingdom. Let me have a heavanly mindset. Give me your ears, eyes and heart so that I care about the things you do and no longer am caught up in my self. Thank you for intimacy with you and how much you care for me. Thank you for the little things that you surprise me with each day. Thank you for the big things that are yet to come. I'm yours, Daddy. I surrender my life. Even more, I surrender my day to day schedule. Do what you will with every part of me. I no longer desire old things that only benefit me and get me no where. I desire your approval alone. No one else can satissfy or compare to you. I have put my trust and time and praise into too many people and things, help me to only focuss on you! Continue to humble me. Give me wisdom in the midst of chaos, strength do what you want me to even when it conflicts with flesh and unconditional love for all.

I LOVE YOU, DADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~your baby girl~

Life is awesome, God is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-12-02T18:23:00.000-08:00

Oh man... Life is good! :)

God and I have been having some awesome times together latly! Our relationship has moved to a whole new level, He's amazing!!!!!

My boss just gave me a $.50 raise! um, yeah, for my first raise ever that's pretty sweet!

anyways, I hope that everyone is amazing and you guys are really blessed and enjoying this Christmas season! :)

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ershmealioojamalicious~

uh, help!

2005-11-25T14:10:00.000-08:00

ok, i'm like totally screwing my blog up! haha...

JULIE i need you! haha, i was trying to redue my links... umm... that didn't work. at the moment i just have a list of URLs, which will do for a time, but they are sooooo far down! haha....

help :S

oh man, i'm so computer challenged! :S

Humility brings change

2005-11-16T09:47:00.000-08:00

I just got through reading Julie's blog...

there has been alot of ways that we all have let the enemy divide us.

I'm so sick of this, and unfortunately I'm not at all exempt.

I'm saying NO to satans attacks, and YES to Jesus

we have to become humble, it hurts, very much! none of us want to let go of our pride, we think we are right, we have been hurt and we hold on to that hurt and point fingers.

you know what the answer is? LOVE. we have get our focus back on our DADDY. Jesus is the only one who can mend this all. this means letting go of ourselves! just let God humble you and you will see a change. fall on your knees before Him, cry out to the one who loves you and has missed you!

I have really been struggling with realizing all the crap I do... But I pray for humility and unconditional love in myself, and i pray for it in you.

some things do need to be said and worked out, but before we go yelling at each other and getting all butthurted, lets examine ourselves first.

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! lets kick satan in the butt! :) anyone in favor of a big group hug? haha..... ;)

I assembled a vacuum! :)

2005-11-16T09:30:00.000-08:00

well, I have been sick for the past 5 days, it sucks! anyways....

The other day my mom brought home a new vacuum. I opened the box and to my dissmay, like a thousand pieces came out. My mom told me that since it was my job to vacuum it was my job to put the vacuum together! I was like "yeah right! we need a guy to do that..." It took my forever to find the right screw driver (it HAD to be a phillips... and I learned the hard way that any other screw driver DOES NOT work...). When I had all the right tools and I actually took time to read the instructions, it was waaaay too easy! :) I'm so proud of myself! :)

so... My mom and dad are wanting me to work about 1/2 as much as I have been. Latly I've been putting in about half time (that's 20 hours a week on top of going to school full time, not good). I have to tell my boss that I can only work like 10 hours a week.... that's not gonna be pretty, especially since she keeps losing ppl.... oh well... parents know best.

well, i'll talk to ya guys later :)

Life's my canvas, I'll paint on it as I please! :)

2005-11-09T14:50:00.000-08:00

I recently discovered that I absolutly love to paint!!! Its a great way to deal with stuff that's bothering me and aslo to just relax. I find so much joy in it, I feel a sense of accomplishment; its amazing! Its one of the only ways that I feel I can adequately express my uniqueness. I used to just doodle and maybe paint or draw a landscape scene once in awhile. In the past I was concerned about what people thought of my drawings, I used to think they weren't good enough, I wasn't a good enough artist. Lately I have been painting on anything I feel like: my dresser drawers, my type-writer case (looks like a briefcase) and soon I want to paint on my walls. I'll start out with some different colored paints and just go for it, maybe some obvious objects will turn out, but I literally have no clue what I am painting. I'll just focus on one section at a time. It's like the painting will turn out however it wants to, regardless of what I want! haha... maybe that's God painting through me or maybe I'm just an amazing artist and I didn't even know it! haha... jk! But I'll look at the "finished" product and be in awe. :) Its quite a fun experience! :D

ok, I seriously don't think that anybody even reads this anymore... Chris usually does. and for awhile there Amanda was the only one commenting. So, I might be just rambling on for no particular reason. I don't really care if you guys read this because if I did, I would write something more interesting! haha

talk to ya later!

bitter~sweet

2005-10-24T18:29:00.000-07:00

i have discovered something

사랑은 우측 사람, 그렇지 않으면 그것의 쓴에 단 감미롭다

or if you prefer Italian...

l'amore è soltanto dolce con la persona giusta, altrimenti il relativo amaro

and for those of you who speak only English, this means

love is only sweet with the right person, otherwise its bitter

HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY!!!!!!!!!!

2005-10-15T14:34:00.000-07:00

I'M SOOOOO FREAKING HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!!!

well, not happy... JOYFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I only know part of the reason :) GOD IS AMAZING, friends are AMAZING

I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ash~

fershnickered flat-tires with Fershnably!!!!!!!!!!

2005-09-23T23:54:00.000-07:00

someone really needs to make a t-shirt that says "I SURVIVED DRIVING WITH ASHLEY!!!"
tonight stephie and I kidnapped chris and went in search for an adequate place to gaze at stars and inhale intoxicating fall air.

on our way to the beloved haybale spot, something fearsome struck my back right tire. there was an awful hissing sound as my entire car sunk into the road and the tire died! :S horror and anxiousness overtook my heart. grand stories of what "really" happened started flooding my mind. the truth is, as we drove on that quaint country road, an enormous, shadowy figure crossed our path! I feared the worst and promptly yelled "EVERYONE OUT OF THE CAR!!!!!!!! QUICK!!!" we fell out of the doors as the car slowly skidded to a stop. we too quickly felt calm and reassured thinking that everything was fine. mistaken, much were we! it was then that the car lurched forward, hitting the dark mass... A MOOSE POPPED MY TIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well, that's one version of the story... if you talk to stephie about it, apparently we visited Narnia or something!

atleast I know one thing... its never a dull moment driving with me! :D

I love you all! and don't worry, nothing bad will happen to you when i'm driving... unless i'm in some kind of random mood... or I've opened a bottle and am drinking a delicious liquid.. while driving! haha, oh man... that's a good version of the story... anyways...

~FERSHNABLY~

The last all~nighter of the summer!!!

2005-09-02T21:03:00.000-07:00

Will just married!!! LOL!!! ;) :P

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golf gazebo grapes!

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we watched the sunrise :)

2005-09-01T16:01:00.000-07:00

the goal post was FREEZING!!!!!!!!

2005-09-01T15:53:00.000-07:00

WE PLANTED CHOPSTICKS AT TEMPLETON HIGH!!!

2005-09-01T15:39:00.000-07:00

school.... muahahaha!

2005-08-24T11:13:00.000-07:00

haha! almost everyone started school today, except for Chris and I! Hehe, we start tomorrow.....

well, I wanted to get a bunch of pix up here from when Steph and I had our last all nighter of the summer.... I won't get to it for awhile though...

I love you guys! (oh, I know that the TAG party is Friday, but some of us should go to Bobby's birthday party for a bit too, he would greatly appreciate it!)

~ash~

won't you hold me now? i will not bend i will not break!

2005-08-15T15:36:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh!!! my kitten is going insane! but atleast she likes the rain, just like me! has anyone ever found a cat that enjoys being wet??? its quite a strange novelty, let me tell you! and the only reason i am sitting here in fron of this awful screen and not dancing in the rain with my dear friends is because you (my dear friends) have not read an update from me in quite sometime...

as i was telling kenny, i really couldn't think of a clever title... but i guess you can't go wrong with song lyrics! i went with those lyrics b/c #5 is my fav... but of course there is the ever popular alternative: "breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep. this air is blessed you share with me"... whichever you prefer... woo~hoo! dashboard is great :) (and if anyone thinks differently, they can just hush b/c it makes me think of Jon who is my long, lost, dear friend...)

alright, i have grand news! (these next few sentences are copied and pasted from a comment on Katie's blog...) I finally got another job! :) I now am a grateful employee of the Templeton Herrman's Chocolate Lab and Ice Cream Parlor... that's an awfully long name for such a tiny shop! haha... but it is a quaint little place filled with good smells and pleasant people. My employers only pay minimum wage but they seem to be a really sweet and spunky older couple. I'm happy for the work, I just hope and pray that I'll get good at it soon so I won't feel like such an idiot! haha.... chocolate isn't hard, I just don't like messing up on the register... soon my boss is going to have me work the shop all alone.... hmm...

so, dare I say it? what the heck! school is drawing ever nearer! are you ready??? i am definitly not! haha, i have ap psych hw to finish, senior pictures to take (my own and someone elses...) and other shtuff...

anyways, i'll let you go now. its time to wash and wax my car! :D yippee!!!

(oh, I promised will that I would carry on his sign off when I remembered...) so, everybody STAY JESUS FREAKS!!!!!! :D

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!

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REDDING!!!!!!!

2005-07-26T13:55:00.000-07:00

Redding was amazing, because God is amazing! I'm totally stoked and want God to do something through me like everyday. I plan on waking up early every morning if I remember and spending a little time with Him and then asking Him what He wants me to do that day... and hopefully He will use me! :D

Everthing in my life seems to be back on track and better than ever! Thanks for all your support! I love you guys soooo much!

STAY JESUS FREAKS!!!!! (sorry, I couldn't resist stealing Will's sign off, especially since he doesn't post anymore!!!)

~coconut~

new post

2005-07-18T16:31:00.000-07:00

has anyone actually started packing for Redding??? hmm, I should probably get on that. We have like 15 hours before we leave! yippeeee!!! I'm excited! :D

So, by the time anyone reads this I'm sure we will have already come back from Redding, unless you didn't go with us, or you got a head start on things...

Well, I'm off to do laundry and pack! yay!!! :D

~coconut~

"my mayonnaise is yellow."

2005-07-11T16:06:00.000-07:00

I don't really eat yellow mayonnaise, that would be disgusting...

YAY!!!!!! I have a head ache... but that is not what I'm excited about. I WASHED AND VACUUMED MY CAR!!!! *sigh* what a relief. I think I need to start doing that atleast every other week, if not every Monday when I go to do chores for my dad (he pays me). Yeah, my dad wants me to come every Monday to clean the bathrooms and floors so my sister has a break, plus I need money so it works perfectly! :) My dad is cool like that... :D

SWING DANCING TONIGHT!!!!! YIPPEEE!!!!!

Redding is coming up, I'm sooo excited!!! :D

God is awesome! I'm doing really well. Everything (all the drama and stuff) is seeming to be worked out nicely... well, for me atleast. I'm just giving it all to God and in return He has given me peace and joy! yeah!!! :D

work... um, keep praying about that for me please... I know God has a great plan for a job for me, I just get impatient sometimes, and worried... but that's silly

well, I love you all very much! but you knew that...

oh, and Amanda, if you are reading this... I MISS YOU!!! I would love to hang out with you sometime.... but unfortunatly I'm terrible at arranging this sort of thing, call me sometime if you want, k? I LOVE YOU! :D

~shlax~

sittin in her room...

2005-06-30T17:26:00.000-07:00

Me, Katie and Julianna

so I'm in SLO right now... where are you???

ok... see you all soon! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

(I think that has to be the BEST post I have ever done! and Julianna is laughing at me..... grrr.. ok, leaving now..................................)

By the way... Josh Groban is amazing! Just ask Chelsea, she's in love with him :).......I especially love his Si Volvieras A Mi song :)

Here's how it went...

2005-06-23T21:18:00.000-07:00

First there was skin in the smoothie (apple skin, not ashley skin, mind you!)

We discovered that I'm quite apPEELING and "skinny"

There was a some cream and a sugar who hid in a tree as 5 guys hunted them down

A Kidd who hadn't a permit nor a license drove a brave gals car for a dangerous 15 min. trek

Much adventure took place at Casa de May's where the cops were almost called by nearby "guards"

Fortunatly this does not end our entertaining saga...

Please stay tuned as the rest of our fun unfolds!

**Your ever so humble narrator**

I look like a lepar!

2005-06-23T13:13:00.000-07:00

ok, time for a new post! do you ever just want to get rid of the old stuff, well, the past... and just move on to better things? yeah...

so, summer is wonderful!!! :D the key is getting out of the house and hanging with awesome people! :D

I'm at my dad's house right now... interesting, isn't it? haha, it was great, I came home at 9:45 last night after telling my dad I would be home at 9:30 (some talks needed to happen, luckily no walking invovled!)... I haven't felt like I needed to get home early in a long time... then I was gonna chat with my sister but I was immediatly greeted by a phone call from Will, Sarah (who had just landed in Hawaii! yay!!) and Kenny... so there was much chatting going on, just not with my sister... oh well :)

anyways, time to go vacuum some cars! yay! ;) haha

luv~ash

I'm as red as... something very red... OUCH!!!

2005-06-19T19:07:00.000-07:00

Ok, I will no longer go outside with out drenching myself in sunscreen! Haha, TAG had a car wash this past Saturday to raise money for Jesus Culture... We earned alot of money, thank you God! ...Unfortunatly we all got rather BURNED! ugh... I have found that there is really no good that comes of basking in the sun, just much pain and peeling!

So, to the all of you who were not directly involved in the "drama" that I referred to in my previous post, I'm sorry you are confused, but please consider yourself blessed that you steered clear!

I just thought you should know that I absolutly adore all of my friends. All of you are such a blessing to me in so many unique ways! Thank you. For instance this morning at Church I was having difficulties worshipping because I was rather distracted by something that I have been working out in my life right now. I teared up a few times and desperatly wanted to feel close to God again... Stephen came up to me after worship and wrapped me in one of his safe, big-brother embraces. Thank you Stephen, that meant SO much. Well, soon I had about 5ish guys around me in a group hug. What possessed them all to join in is beyond me, but let me tell you that I felt soooo loved! :) It was a moment that I would like to remember always. I know that whatever I go through, you all are there for me and I feel like I can conquer anything! I feel closer to God now. We all have dry seasons in our lives, sometimes they are necessary in order to see what is missing or what we need to be focussing on...

I still don't know how the job situation is going to work out. It's in God's hands. Sometimes I'm stupid and I think that without my worries and efforts, God won't work things out. Well, we all know that that is utterly ridiculous. Every stressful situation, every moment of need in my life, God has shown me how to have faith and know that His plan is perfect.

Anyways, thanks again for reading, you guys are awesome! :D

~shleek, shlax, ershmealio...whatever!~

Yay! Jesus Culture!!!

2005-06-14T16:20:00.000-07:00

hiya everyone!!!

wow, so, we have been having a little drama latly, eh? haha... well, hopefully it is over! :D ;) :P Life's too short, I'm up for just staying honest with everyone and trying to keep the frustration and weirdness to a minimum... sound good? and plz, no more walks!!! they're killing me! just kidding, just kidding... :D newho!

Summer has finally arrived!!! I'm soooo excited for Jesus Culture! And I'm actually really enjoying relaxing and not having to jump up for work! The other day Will and I were sitting on the May's front lawn listening to Mae... I realized that I was thinking about absolutly nothing! yes, that is possible! It was amazing! :D I was so proud of myself!!! :D haha

So, not much else to say, except, YOU ALL ROCK! I LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!!

thanks for reading! ;)

~aushlee~

Haha, if anyone still reads this...

2005-06-08T14:19:00.000-07:00

hello everyone! It would be amazing if ppl still read this, cuz I said I wouldn't post anymore... but... wutev!! :P

Yay!!! School's out!!! no more finals!!! weee!!!!!! hehe

Wow, things have been really interesting latly... lots of changes and crazy learning experiences... but enough said about that...

My dad and I are getting along great. I spent time with him the other day and it was very nice. :D

I don't think that I'm gonna work at the Templeton Market after all... for one, the manager hasn't called me back since I called to say I could start work. And I think that I would prefer working somewhere else, maybe... I don't know what is going to happen. I have been slowing applying to other places in Templeton... We'll see where God takes me. Its all a step of faith! :)

well, I must be going... I guess... haha... not that I have anything important to do at the moment... Thanks to all who have been supportive latly... :D

With much love~ ashley

We meet again, briefly

2005-05-24T16:16:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone :)

I have short and unexpected access to a computer, how exciting :D

If anyone was wondering, things are going much better with my dad. I'm living fulltime with my mom which is such a blessing because for the past 7 years that my parents have been divorced I have never felt like I belong anywhere. My dad and I currently are communicating via email or phone... our conversations have been pleasant, productive, and brief. I have let him know that I dearly love him and desire to spend time with him... Whenever he is ready to spend time, that's when we will.

Anyways, I have switched jobs. I no longer work at Spencer's Market in Atascadero but The Templeton Market. This will give me more hours, better pay and much more experience, plus I will save alot on gas :D I have simpified my life and am finding amazing peace and joy daily. My amazing Heavenly Father has blessed my life in sooooo many miraculous ways, more than I even know! :D

Thank you all for your loving friendships :)

I may abandon my blog... hmmm

2005-05-18T12:58:00.000-07:00

Well, unfortunatly I do not have a computer any longer at home. I rarely have access to the internet... therefore I may be abandoning my blog... I feel it would be ridiculous to try to continue to post on here if I never can check it... *sigh*

The thing is that I no longer live with my dad... I'm fulltime at my mom's house, which is very nice in many ways. I hope and pray that soon things will be patched up with my dad so that we can occasionally hang out, although I won't go back to his house. I love my dad very much and desire to have a good relationship with him. But I can't live with him because he isn't allowing me to become a young woman and have my own opinion and different stuff...

If you think to, prayer would be much accepted. I will tell those who care the whole story... unless I don't feel like talking about it :) I'm sorry to all who have been faithful in reading this, thank you for all your love and support!

~ashley~

Do you ever just post just to post?........

2005-05-13T23:11:00.000-07:00

ya so, I'm not sure what I'm going to type... I just felt the need to post... so, here goes! :)

Today was one of the longest days at work I have ever experienced! Not that I worked many hours, it just dragged on with endless boredom... The few customers we had were really interesting though! haha... oh man.
One lady was either manifesting (had a weird demonic spirit that she allowed in her life) or was very high... I'm thinking it was a little of both... she came in my line and was shouting at different customers and making the strangest faces... it was rather amusing but I chose to ignore her so she wouldn't continue...
Another group of teens came in and were about to rip us off when a fellow coworker approached casually to see what was up. When they saw him coming, they proceeded to scamper out the door, cursing, screaming and making obscene jestures the whole way out...
An elderly gentleman came in at one point. He set himself in one of our motor carts so that he wouldn't have to walk. He attempted to ride through a register aisle, rounding the corner and getting stuck on a metal spoke. He still had the pedal to the medal when the cart began to flip backwards because it couldn't move forward. The old man then looked like a frightened boy bouncing on an angry bull. It was rather terrifying because I feared he would injure himself!
By the end of the night I was staring at the wall, desparatly hoping that a customer would wander in very quickly, when I began laughing. Slowly I became more giddy and was soon in hysterics... my fellow coworkers were oblivious to the hilarity that had suddenly overtaken me. I must say that I felt a little insane and tired, too much of nothing, for not a thing had triggered this joyous outburst... I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. You are sooo very exausted that it takes absolutly nothing to trigger an emotional outburst, well, mine was in the form of laughing like a mad man! ;) :P

Ok, I guess I found something to talk about! :)

Hopefully I will be back to my regular TAG and Church schedule next weekend... in the mean time, I hope you all are having a wonderful time! I love and miss you all! :D

~shlay~

Happy MO DAY TO YOUR MOMMA!!!!!!

2005-05-07T23:42:00.000-07:00

and a most fibinachious spidionkle to you aswell!

and i mean just that... :D

she greets the day with her hair wet

2005-05-01T19:14:00.000-07:00

Hellooo!!! :D
How is everyone??? (now, you know the drill, I would love a response to that question! I honestly care! hehe)

So, I have made two new friends, some of you have met them aswell... Chelsea and David! They are so awesome, I love them!

oh, Will, I don't get angry that you keep wiping whip cream on my face... it's just sort of annoying and odd! haha... but i love you... :) and please remember, everyone, that when I am attempting to drink grapefruit soda, its a bad idea to make me laugh! I just end up with a wet purse and chris and then of course a burning nose! haha... oh man, good times!

It's interesting and rather sad... and kinda fun at the same time... but I will be very busy the next couple weekends. Family events but mostly hanging with old pals from SLO will be consuming my Fridays, Saturday, and Sundays... Hopefully you all will get along well with out me! :) I have faith in you! :D you know... a wise person once said "absence makes the heart grow fonder", I hope that is true in this case! :D

You are amazing! Thanks for being my wonderful pals! hehe, I don't know where I'd be with out you!!! You all have shaped my life so beautifully!!!

~shleek~

(I think that is my favorite nickname so far, David gave it to me, with out knowing that ppl usually call me strange things to that affect... feel free to call him parrot! haha... but I also love the name Shleyrah, which is the nickname for sarah AND I... haha... b/c, yeah)

Vision of heaven

2005-04-24T20:54:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, after the conference, I was lying on the ground outside the church gazing up at the vast black sky speckled with stars. I saw a large white square open in the sky. I have seen this "window" in the sky before, but it was always smaller and I had never been all the way sucked in.

well, as you may have guessed, I was pulled into the bright space and ended up in a part of heaven. Jesus was standing next to me. I gazed at the place I had been priviledged to come to. The sun was shining, rolling grass danced alongside orchards, and there were a few scattered trees. The more interesting thing I noticed was that there were a group of smallish angels quietly working. They were pushing wheelbarrows and tending to various jobs. They noticed me but said nothing.

As quickly as I had arrived, I was again conscious of my surroundings in the parking lot. I was very curious and wanted to see more of heaven. But I didn't see the door again, until it appeared, this time much narrower. I was perplexed, thinking for sure I would not be able to pass through. I was bummed that I hadn't been able to stay longer...

But God let me know that I hadn't missed my chance. He explained that the door was smaller this time so that less of me (my flesh and stuff) would be able to pass through. He reassured me that I could go back, but I would need to REALLY want to.

ok, I think that was all... I don't remember... I hope this benefits you in some way! :)

~ash~

Clarity about stuff... :)

2005-04-10T20:53:00.000-07:00

YAY! God is so amazing! Today He gave me a pretty sweet revalation about what He has planned for me! He has been trying to tell me for a long time... but I didn't get it! haha... He wants me to go to places like Africa (and I don't know exactly where else) and minister to the women and children... and stuff... I still don't know much about my future, but that part is awesome, and I'm stoked. The reason I figured this out was because for several years now God has been giving me His heart for the lost. I'll find myself basking in His presence then suddenly start weeping, then wailing (like loud), its weird! The last time it happened (its only happened several times) He showed me a vision of some African looking women. I cried for them. My heart went out to them. Then today I realized that God wants me to go to them and minister in those areas... or something... I don't know exactly, but its gonna rock! :D

anyways, lots of cool things happened today, but that was probably the most profound. If anyone has any words, visions, comments (funny, serious, silly... wutev) haha, feel free to comment! :D

I love you!!! :D

~ershmealio~

uh... the salt is in the sugar shaker... YOU TYPE AMAZINGLY... haha

2005-04-01T22:51:00.000-08:00

anyways.... chris messed up this computer By sending steph a thousand and one hearts...

we are stilL awaiting the arrival of Katie, Andrew, Julie, Sarah, and Les. hopefully they come soon, they are missing all the action... wonder what's occuring In that crazy car! haha we can only guess... *shiver* hehe, jk

well... "what else should I write, steph?"

"uh, um, type about the antena that poked out of the button hole... WAIT, I INTERLUDE! wait, how does it go... hmmm. *sigh* IT IS BY FAR THE BEST, LAMEST WAY, THE NERDIEST WAY TO SAY I CAN'T REMEMBER... well, that's not really it, I can't remember... what is it OK, THE BEST WAY TO SAY I HAVE NO IDEA, ONLY IF YOU CUT OFF THE SECOND HALF... oh!! I know what it is!!! i know what it is!!! 'HALF THE NIGHT I WASTE IN SIGHS, IN A WAKEFULL DOZE I SORROW... I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO WRITE ON THIS POST...'"

well, there ya have it folks, steph's little input... I can't type, and she apologizes for making it so boring and confusing.. well, not boring, just confusing... haha... no! i'm not ok!!!!!!!! :P :D haha oh man... ome!!! I can smile though.... I CAN SMILE!!!!! :D

bye.......

I SMILING, AND I'M HOLDING THE BASKETBALL PLAYERS HAND, AND I'M SMILING!!!!

Title (oneness, witness, divine, cosmo/earth) If you can figure out why I wrote that in the parenthesis, comment about it... :) hehe

2005-03-26T12:34:00.000-08:00

MERRY EASTER!!!! hehe... Happy Easter sounds funny to me... kinda fake, sorry... anywho! What are you all doing? probably hanging out with each other, while I'm at Disney Land!!!! wee... I'll have to ride some crazy rides for you all... It'll be fun, but it would be 100% more fun if you all were with me! I'm miss you guys already, and I'm not even gone yet!!! ahh... that's not right... haha... but doesn't it make you feel special? haha... oh well... I'll be back Tuesday :)

(Les is crazy talented and figured out when I was coming back by how many ppl we were with... although, I already doubted myself when I called the May's and he answered "McDonald's..." man... I knew it was him... grr... therefore, just a little of my trust for him is gone... meaning, I probably told him I was gonna be home Tuesday... or something.... hmm) but then again I'm reminded of an important thing I have learned from people like Les, Andrew, Sarah... this is that I take myself entirely too seriously and need to lighten up! haha

TAG was awesome as usual :D I had a little trouble entering in to worship for mostly stupid insecurity issues trying to come back and a few slight disstractions... but God showed me alot... He showed me something that almost made me cry, but luckily Sarah made me laugh right away (though she claims I was the one to make her laugh... ha!) then God showed me an awesome vision of different people He was going to do radical things in through me... then He had me dance... dance and surrender it ALL... If I didn't give it all up, then God wouldn't have been able to use me completly... I was told to wardance for many girls and young women coming up in the ranks... and stuff... pretty sweet :D

I love you Stephen! If you are reading this... I just wanted you to know how proud I am to know you... Sometimes I sit back and think "hmm... when this friend of mine gets to be famous through Christ... I'll be able to say that I know him/her!" you are one of those ppl... not that you are necessarily going to be all famous like Billy Graham, hehe (maybe...) but just that you already have touched sooo many lives and yeah... I don't know... but u know... I hope u know... haha... cuz I'm tired :) hehe.... :D You know, its funny... You see the different changes taking place in my life and I never thought I'd see many changes in you... but I do! haha... its awesome!!! :D (I'm gonna move on now.. as much as I love encouraging you.... I should give the other readers a break... haha) ;)

So, when I walked in the door tonight, 15 minutes late... I think my dad was asleep!!!! THANK YOU GOD!!!!! I knew I was worried for nothing... Will, oh man... I don't know, haha... I wish it was easier for me to get out the door quicker... I need more discipline... haha, but when it comes to saying goodbye to friends, I can't be rushed!!! Long hugs for everybody... and if you catch me at a particularly interesting time... you could recieve as many as 5 hugs within several minutes... or something... :)

Well, I'd like to keep writing... but I have to wake at 6 am tomorrow!!! ahh... I don't even do that when I have school!!! grr.. hehe... oh well. I'm going to pray alot, sing songs, worship, pray some more, think about friends, trevail on behalf of friends... (I'll be trevailing for you, Sarah, amnong the rest of you... but hopefully you will smile and be joyful know that someone is far away praying for you at this moment... well, not ihis very moment, hmmm... maybe?) :D hehe... I will have a good time at D~Land... I choose to :D wee!!! so those stupid strongholds in that area better watch out!!!! but I definitly can't do it alone! haha... but I know for a fact that atleast two guys are going to have said a pray for me (more after I said that... haha) anywho, I won't mention their names, cuz they know who they are (well, maybe not...) but the rest of you are sitting there thinking... "uh... I'll pray... but was she talking about me???" haha... wutev... I love you and thanks so much!! :) Thanks guys, you got my back, and I appreciate that more than you could ever know! :D Before I go... I just wanted to say how great it feels to know that I have so many strong warriors ready to support me! I never will go out alone again :D THANK YOU ALL!!!!! :D

I love you soooo very much!!!!! :D

Free Time!!!! WEEE!!!!!!

2005-03-20T23:11:00.000-08:00

It was sooo great not having to work today! I got off work Saturday at 3 and almost ran to my car! haha, I was ecstatic, and rather drained. But my energy and moral (morale?) was boosted when I remembered that I was going to hang with awesome ppl at TAG, then chill at the May's house that night, have fun at Church... and be free to hang afterwards! :D wee!!!! hehe

TAG was really cool yesterday. Not having much of a plan was way cool! haha... I like that spontaneous stuff... usually... but we got to worship for quite awhile, which is always the best!! :D and that prophetic "game" we did was really cool. I'm always hesitant to be told to give words but then as I "practice" it becomes real easy and way fun :D haha

yay!!! I'm sooo glad that I'm skipping school Friday! hehe, more time to hang with buds :D and after this week finally ends (hopefully its not too long, haha) we finally get our one week of spring break! *sigh* all the schools should get the same amount of time off... wutev :D breaks rock!!! :D

well, I need to read then get to bed! :D hopefully I have enough time to do my hw this week, haha...I talked to my boss and I only have to go in Friday and Saturday for work... which means a happy Ashley, and community group; haha, I got it off sarah :D

LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

~ershmellow~

"and that's the way the cookie crumbles"

2005-03-18T21:11:00.000-08:00

good evening my little readers! :D

how is everyone tonight? (by the way, when I ask that question, I expect a response... such as "hi ash!! I'm doing very well, thank you for asking..." or "well, life sux right now.... but i'll live... it think..." or something to that affect... :D)

work was interesting today. this German gentleman came in, he's older... like... I don't know. anyways, he's a riot, always brightens my day :D I appreciate witty, cheerful customers :D haha... anywho, last time he was in he asked me how many languages I spoke (he's German, remember...) I replied "uh... one fluently" I had totally forgotten tongues and I'm fairly good at Sign Language... but whatever. he replied "do u know what they call someone who speaks three languages? trilingual. two? bilingual. one? american" haha, yeah... ok, it would be funny to you too if you had been on ur feet all day working with grumpy ppl! ;) then today I was in a good mood... I was bagging his stuff and he commented, saying, "hey! stop smiling so much... don't be so happy! you know, it makes the young guys have a heartache and the old people think you're up to something!" haha... wow... whatever, sounds like something my dad would say. I now have a greater appreciation for the ppl who have to work with my dad and ppl like this gentleman... :)

hmm... that was a long paragraph about a complete stranger... haha, enjoy!! :D

well, see ya all later :D luv ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ash~

ahh, I'm currently choking on snickers ice cream... what an interesting way to die... haha, JK... my dad is typing a letter to my boss saying that he only wants me working two days a week.. they have me scheduled for 5 days this next week! oh man... haha... I'm not used to this, thank God for dad's! hehe :D ok, I'm leaving now! :)

:D

2005-03-14T20:34:00.000-08:00

HELLOOO EVERYONE!!!!!

how ru all doing?

well, I'm FAB!!! :D work is really fun, actually, haha I really enjoy getting to know my coworkers but the best part is being cheerful with the customers and seeing there day brighten just a little... :D haha.... I think I'm definitly a people person... I guess... It makes me feel wonderful to help someone... haha...

well, God just had me "trevail" (sp?) for like two ppl at once...haha, it was fun... :D I don't know what else to say... I had something really great... hmmm... oh well... um, I work this Thursday and Friday from 4~8.... and Saturday from 9~3... I left a note with my boss saying that I would appreciate getting off by 4:30 on saturdays... and not working Sundays...haha... this would be really boring info for someone to read... haha... oh well...

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! (AND GALS!!!) hehe

~marshmellow~

hmmm... marshmellow... lol, sarah :P

La! La!! La!!!

2005-03-13T09:08:00.000-08:00

I'm singing my title... It's fun, you should try it sometime...

Ok, I didn't have to work during TAG, as most of you figured out... that was amazingly wonderful! :D I worked from 11~4 Sat. and I have to go back today (only cuz I asked... grr....) haha... but you know what? I'm earning money! God has been gracious enough to allow me an interesting way to get money to do things I like doing, like having a car... haha THANK YOU GOD!!! I am so sad that I won't be able to hang with ppl after Church today... but it's a great lesson to be learning. This is how work goes, you have to make some sacrifices... I'm going to try to talk to an employee about moving my hours around so that I have more time after Church and stuff... It'll be good :)

Thank you all for the support and encouragement you have been to me in all this! you all are amazing, I love you so much! :D

Ok, so I'm sitting here only because:
1) I locked my keys in... (omg! haha, I was about to say I locked my keys in my car! ahh!! Thank goodness I didn't do that AGAIN! haha) no... I currently can't find my keys...

2) I woke up at 8 am (instead of 7:15) only because Will called... thanks Will! haha... and my alarm clock is stupid, so I would have been late for Church anyways... therefore I decided to not go to first service (I'd use my dad's copied key... I guess...) and to just catch up on some stuff...

mhm, *sigh* yeah... well, Life is very... interesting haha... but I'm glad that I have cool opportunities to grow and try to treat ppl around me better, and shtuff... ya... ok... Time to hang with my Daddy :D

*~*~*~*~*

Job!!!!

2005-03-08T16:23:00.000-08:00

wee!!! I have a job!!! I am going to be hired at Spencer's Market in Atascadero (right in my dad's neighborhood)... Well, they can't hire me until after my drug test results return... haha, my dad was like "yeah... you can't get the job if you don't quit that meth habit..." haha, what a kidder! ;) :P hehe, anywho! :D I'm happy, and yay! Thank you God! my dad was saying that he isn't gonna pay for my gas anymore... wow! good thing I got this job!! haha... well, I don't know when I start... but... I think the hours are gonna cut into TAG!!!!! I'm gonna cry!!!! but when the summer comes hopefully I can change that!!! oh man... It's all in His hands!!! I love you!!!!!

~ash~

a few thoughts...

2005-03-08T00:06:00.000-08:00

oh, just to remind you, if you didn't see my previous post, check out my myspace to gaze upon Katie's master hair cutting skills (located in my links... then go to "view more pix")....

ok, as I was standing at the sink tonight, splashing water all over myself attempting to clean some dishes, I had a thought. My dad just recently sniffed out a possible job opportunity for me... we'll see how everything pan's out, its all in His hands. :) ok, I was kind of starting to frett about school, work and different schedule clashes... I then had a brilliant thought, ok, maybe not brilliant, but it was pretty cool! :D I was thinking "hmm, do I do the things I do for me, or God?" I then had utter peace about school and work and every other situation. I know that I need to complete every task with a joyful heart as if working for the Lord... and I should do things with the motivation to please HIM, not myself or others... yeah :D

I had another thought too... sometimes I get insecure about relationships and stuff... (relationships in general). but I realized that some of the better friends I have are really open and stuff... I find myself clamming up sometimes, whether its a nasty habit or just a safe guard, I don't like it! I realized that any time a relationship has taken off real well, its cuz atleast one of those ppl was willing to be selfless and compassionate and just go for it... or whatever. haha, what I'm trying to say is that to be a good friend, you need to just be the friendly one, no matter how hard it is. You need to let go of all the insecurities and try to get past assumptions. Unconditional love breaks down sooo many barriers and allows the other person to be free to be their loving self aswell! :) ........... and stuff............

ok, I lost my train of thought cuz Stephen just informed me that he may be coming as early as this Thursday night!!!!! :D pray that his friend's schedules work out so he can bring them!!!! :D wee!!! I know you all are SOOOOO stoked, just like me!!! :D

~luv ya!!!!~

yay!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-07T22:51:00.000-08:00

I prevailed!!!! this dumb computer will not take me down!!!! bwah haha!!!! :D ok, sry... got a little excited there! haha, anywho. you all can dry your tears now! :D I figured out a way to let you ALL see my wonderous hair shots! :D Just click on my myspace link over there to the right... you see it? huh? huh? no, not that... keep scrolling... almost there... anyway, its there and you just have to click on "view more pix" and then viola! (sp?) weeee!!!! haha ok... Oh, and I didn't put up and of the before shots from that day cuz Katie was right, they did look like mug shots!!! haha...

I love you all more than you could ever imagine!!!! :D

(we miss you ever so much aswell Kaytaliscious!)

~hmm.... what should my closing line be... hmmmm~

ahhh!!!!!

2005-03-07T20:57:00.000-08:00

I'm afraid my computer has been acting like a real retard.... It won't let me access my pictures therefore I am unable to post the before and after shots of my exciting hair cut event... I'm sorry! I'm also bummed! grr... ok... so, this is the lame post that you all are gonna have to live with for awhile...

~*~*~ershameelio~***~

Winsome!~:D*

2005-02-28T21:52:00.000-08:00

The word winsome means to be charming, often in a childlike, naive way... its a very cool word! Roger used it in his last sermon, and Sarah and I loved it... anyone else strangley intrigued by this word? haha

oh, and I figured out what disillusioned means: to free or deprive of illusion.... um... ya... :D

bye!

(read my last two posts if you haven't already... or... not... whatev! hehe)

~mua~

God's desire...

2005-02-27T17:40:00.000-08:00

Today at church someone had a really cool thing to say and it totally blew me away... I had talked about some stuff I had been wanting in the previous post (well, I didn't mention them... but, yeah). Ok, so, I was thinking that it wasn't ok to want these things... well, the person was saying that God wants us to have these things we desire! that He is going to give them to us... I guess it depends on what ur desires are, but I was totally stoked... like, thanks God!! woo~hoo so, every time I get discouraged now I'm just gonna remember the promises and crazy plan He has for me... and yeah, its exciting! I encourage everyone to put in some really specific prayer requests because God's gonna answer them! :)

luv u guys!!!

~*ershy*~

this is my desire...

2005-02-27T01:05:00.000-08:00

Recently I have been struggling with my desires and God's plan for me... I don't want the two to collide, I know that as I become smaller, His will is better fullfilled. I so want to get rid of all selfishness and not be focussed on me what so ever... but I don't think that's possible, being that I'm human. :( But it was cool cuz I recently was reminded of the Bible verse that says "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart". I got really excited and have been trying to "delight myself in the Lord" so that I can have the things I want... yeah, that quickly faded away cuz I realized that I was yet again being selfish and that my fleshly desires weren't necessarily God's perfect will for me...
Well, as I was driving down to SLO this weekend to visit some old pals, a cool Jeremy Camp song came on. It was talking about his desire was to be used by God. I thought that was cool... then I remembered Roger recently talking about running the race of life and how our goal/desire should be to KNOW God... so, I've decided that not only am I going to delight myself in the Lord more and more, but I choose for my desires to be to know Him and be used by Him... :D It's sooo much more fullfilling to be selfless! :D hehe... yeah, just thought I'd share with all of you :) hope I didn't leave anything out!

"Goodbye, my dear!
Tood~a~loo!
Au Revior!
Auveitersane! (sp?)
Ciao!
Ting~Tong~Tang!"

*~Vie La Laife Framboise Se Liguer~*